Advice

I need some help from those interested in reading this.

I suck at relationships. Seriously. I don’t know what a good one looks like for me or what one is suppose to entail for me.

I keep saying “for me” because I think every relationship doesn’t look the same for every person. For me, it’s been making them not want to be with me, so when I want to leave them they’re not surprised. Here’s the worst part about it: I do this before I even know I don’t want to be with them. Like to just cover my bases or something?

I’m tired of being the broken person in a relationship and making the other party feel like crap. I don’t know how to do this.

I think I might have missed my window in truly figuring out what a relationship looks like for me with my ex and now I’m in a relationship I am sinking without thought.

What I want to know is, am I alone? I have therapy lined up to help me start pulling out all this junk, but I feel so lost.

I’m so tired of feeling like people I really care about enter my life and leave wanting to forget me. I hate hurting people’s feelings yet do it all the time in a relationship. I am constantly insulting, demeaning, hurtful and generally a wanker to those I’m with. I don’t want to be but I do it without thinking. I don’t say that to excuse it but to fully explain the need for someone’s help.

Has anyone else felt like this? Has anyone had this happen to them? Do you have some advice besides the typical “do and not do” of relationships?

I want steps…I crave direction. I feel like I’m trying to take it one step at a time, but with killing the relationship before it even starts could equal me being a very lonely person in the end.

I joke because I don’t want to get married anytime soon, but at this pace, I’m probably not going to get married at all.

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